Friday, December 16, 2005

Daddy, I still miss you

Tonight is the anniversary of my father's death.

I'm still working on a way to replace the sadness I feel at this time of year with the joy of the season that surrounds me.

Perhaps tomorrow, I will wake up and feel like dragging the boxes of Christmas decorations from the basement, decking the halls, putting up a tree, wrapping packages and baking cookies. Maybe I won't feel like it and will make the effort anyway. But tonight, I'm going to sit with my sadness, remember my dad and miss him.

9 comments:

Debra Spincic said...

I'll miss him too with you and I'll miss my son whose favorite Christmas decoration is now on his brother's Christmas tree in Houston.

I'm alone tonight too. Maybe I'll light a candle for all of us who miss our departed loved ones on the holidays.

I thought I would go mad the end of 2001. I didn't want the year to end because I felt like I was leaving Will behind. I knew he would never be around anymore past that year. It was a desperate time. Christmas was glum, at best.

I wish I could come over and sit with you. OK, I am off to light candles for us and handsew on my Madonna quilt. Hugs.

Jules said...

Sophie I am thinking of you this evening.

Debra Spincic said...

How are you doing this morning?

Rian said...

Sophie, I hope you were able to feel close to your father last night. It's a cruel, cruel thing to lose a loved one on a holiday. All the sights and sounds bring the memories and sadness right back. Let the sadness go now, and know that your father is close to you in spirit.

Gemia said...

I'm sorry Sophie, and I am thinking of you.

Scrapmaker said...

Holidays are so difficult when we are missing the ones who have gone. I think it's important to realize that they aren't all joyful and that sorrow and memory have an important place too.

That's not very articulate, but I empathize greatly. I hope you can find some comfort in allowing yourself to remember. Jen

Olenka said...

That's a beautiful photo. My heart goes out to you, Sophie. This is a bittersweet time for me also. I wrote a LONG letter to my husband in my journal on the day of his angel-anniversary. It helps.

Remember, despite the frenzy of this shopping season, it really is a time to consider the meaning of peace and goodwill on earth. Forced decoration will only add to the emptiness felt without our loved ones. I now decorate with as few or as many decorations as hold the MEANING of love or joyful memories, thus providing an embracing atmosphere that comforts.

Debra Spincic said...

How are you doing today, Sophie?

Jane Ann said...

Sophie, how are you? I miss hearing from you.

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